Archive for November 9th, 2009
I don't need long yet damaged hair to accentuate my femininity and I don't see my body as a graveyard for dead animals nor dumpsite for empty calorie.
I am NOT the type of girl that asks this type of questions:
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- Which dress do I look better in?
- Does my make-up look alright?
- Should I buy that pair of shoes or this one?
- Would a MINI or a 4-wheel-drive suit me best?
I know my taste, I understand my body type and I respect myself enough well to not let others decide on what looks and feels good for me.
So when I still do get “Why did you cut your hair? You look so much better with your hair long..” and “Why do you look so skinny now? You lost so much weight since I last saw you?”,
it offends me a lot as I will never be heard voicing out, “Why are you so negative? You always sound more so bitter everytime we meet. What unjustice has the world done to you that you only see ugliness and the worst in others?”
I have wasted too much time, money and energy in painstakingly blowdry, highlight, colour, relax, perm, be put toxic chemicals onto my innocent hair that I earn my right to choose to let it recuperate and heal for the next couple of years.
Hair spiked up for Tatler shoot
Big earrings always complement short hair
I have always weighed 42 kg and been a US size 0 and UK size 6 for the past 10 years and I know my body better than you do. I am simply happy that I am strong enough to lift up my own body weight (and others), I don’t depend on unhealthy substance to enjoy life and that my body is not built of dead animals.
Lifting up Azmi in BE Yoga’s Partner Yoga class every Saturday 4pm
Standing on my elbows for our Partner Yoga performance for Breast Cancer Awareness Karma Yoga
I am more than happy with my short hair and I know I am healthy with 13% body fat percentage. If you are not (happy with my hair and my body fat count, I mean), kindly exhale them now or hold your destructive comments to yourself forever.
I’m surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by impostors everywhere I turn
I’m surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
I’m the only one who’s noticed
I can’t be the only one who’s learnedI don’t want to be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I’m tired of looking ’round rooms wonder what I gotta do
Or who I’m supposed to be
I don’t want to be anything other than me~ GAVIN DE GRAW (I Don’t Wanna Be, 2004)
Love, productive Monday and sweet November ahead.
