One for the road

Music Credit: Swallowed In The Sea (X&Y) & Life In Technicolor II (Viva La Vida) – COLDPLAY

I promise I’ll come back

•  a Fourth Series Ashtanga practitioner
•  and speak fluent Mandarin (and maybe French)
•  with my Moleskine Watercolor filled with beautiful watercolor drawings from locations all around the globe
•  when hybrid cars are not taxed 300% here
•  when veggie burgers & organic everything become more accessible & affordable here
•  when Malaysia’s idiot box stops implying the ban on ‘a Malay person teaching Yoga‘
•  when I’m offered a Datuk-ship for appearing on yoga TV show in LA
•  when I won’t be sent to jail for PDA act above again.

‘Til kingdom come, tell my mom I love her so & start taking up yoga, guys! You don’t know what sex life you are missing.

Photo by Anna-Rina

When I told people that I am taking a year of break from KL to see the world, many raised eyebrows and concerns. Among the reactions that I received were,

“Why? You have everything going for you here!”

“You must be one of the participants for The Amazing Race Asia 4!”

“Are you pregnant?”

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You want the truth?

Photo by Joe Low

I am tired of KL.

Forget about the system that doesn’t work and the embarassing political nuisance – I am mostly sick of people’s ignorance.

I kept fighting for the yoga I believe in as I know that when MORE PEOPLE DO YOGA + PEOPLE DO MORE YOGA  – they will take care of their health & environment more & this country will be a better place for us all to live in.

And just so when I repetitively asked myself one last time “Am I making the right decision?” and “Am I ready?” – this morning I was informed that ASTRO will NOT air my episode of Project Alpha that is scheduled on HITZ.tv (Astro Ch 705) tonight because ‘QC dept said that under the Fatwa law, they couldn’t air a Malay person teaching Yoga’.

Of course this is not unfamiliar for me.

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WHAT, I can’t play here?

.. I know I am making the right decision here.

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God knows I have done almost everything I can to change what I thought could be changed.

God knows my faith is far from shaken or stirred.

God knows the more Yoga Sutra I read, the more translation of Holy Qur’an I get.

God knows how I feel closer to Him the closer I get to know every fibre in my being.

God knows that by every breath I inhale when I’m on my mat, the more I realize that it is MY responsibility to extend this life and this health I am given.

God knows that the more flexible I get & the longer I can stand on my two hands, the more patient & humbled I become.

God knows how yoga has changed me from a girl who had low self-esteem for always having been the shortest everything in her life – to a person that sees everything positive, that thinks impossible really IS nothing.

My impossible behind one of the world’s seven wonders

I have set my foot in Amsterdam, New York, Toronto for the past month and the further I go, all the more I know my calling is not here.

I have China, India and LA on my itinerary next and I don’t plan to come home anytime soon although a big part of my heart is here.

I’ll come back when you are ready for me.

But as for now, let me go..